Umm, Remember Me? I Totally Understand If You Don't...

Wow. It's been over a week since I've blogged. And I aaaam sorry. My job has been super busy for tax season, and I've been working late almost every day. I like to post my blogs during lunch, but I've been working through lunch and blah blah blah, 8 days later and here I am, begging for forgiveness to all 5 of my readers (hi Mom!).

The good news is I've been doing really well, even with my crazy schedule. I didn't get to work out as much as I would have liked to last week, but I was still 212lbs on Friday! I haven't seen my number that low in 2 years!

I made it through the weekend without doing too bad at all. We went to Ohio to visit Jon's grandma, and went to Denny's for dinner (classiest). I got their new veggie burger that comes on a whole wheat bun with baby spinach and pepper jack cheese. They put the mayo on the side too. I did eat all my fries, but saved half the sandwich and had it the next day for lunch.

Sunday my family came over for dinner. I made lasagna and broccoli. We had fresh italian bread and my mom brought stuff to make angel food cake for dessert. It was such a nice evening. I didn't overindulge, and I even walked the Stairs of Death with Murray before my family got here. Working out on a Sunday??? That's crazy talk!

It was nice out on Monday, so I came home and walked the previously mentioned Stairs of Death with Murray. Maybe I should clarify: I walked around my neighborhood and finished off by climbing said Stairs of Death.

Last night I went to a 90 minute Zumba class with Allison. It was good. Super sweaty, and maybe 90 minutes is a bit much for a class, but my favorite instructor from my old Zumba studio taught part of the class and it was so good to see her. She was diagnosed with leukemia last year, and I'm assuming she's doing well and in remission. Like Allison said, if Dani can teach a Zumba class after having cancer and going through chemo, we have no excuse not to work out. Ever.

Allison and I were supposed to take some progress pictures this past Friday, but we ended up not seeing each other at all this whole weekend! I hated it. Anyway, I took a few on my own. I feel like there's a difference, but who knows.

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Maybe there's a difference? The jeans definitely felt looser.

Today my boss asked me how much weight I've lost. It's always a good feeling when people notice.

Anyway, I know tomorrow is another busy day for me. Hopefully by Friday things will be calmer and I'll talk to you bloggers again!

xoxo








Nonfat Tuesday

It's Tuesday already! I was so busy all day today, I didn't have a chance to write anything this morning or at lunch.

I had a gyno appointment today, and we talked a lot about PCOS. She really seems to think I have it, and for the first time in all my years of going to doctors, I really felt like this doctor was empathetic and truly wanted to help. She had me get blood work done right away, and I meet with her again in 2 weeks to go over the results. I expressed my frustration in my sloooow weight loss, but she said I'm doing everything right. She even said if I wasn't already on Weight Watchers, she'd recommend it for me.

I met with my trainer today, and it was a good workout, as usual.  My knees are really bothering me today though. It could be because I wiped out going UP the stairs at work yesterday and spilled coffee everywhere. My boss heard me fall, and pointed out all of the coffee stains on the carpet from him falling. It made me feel better and forget about my throbbing knee. At least for a little while.

Oooh, I almost forgot. I had my measurements taken last Thursday with my trainer. My folder is upstairs, and I'm lazy, so I'll post them tomorrow. I wasn't super happy with my results, but there were some changes.

Also, weirdly enough, my weight went back down. The only thing I can figure is that I had a pretty big dinner Sunday night and maybe that affected it? I don't know. As of this morning I was 213.8, which is my lowest yet. I really needed to see that low number. I was starting to get pretty discouraged, and I could feel myself slipping a little bit.

So, I tried something new for dinner tonight: tofu shirataki noodles! Have you ever tried them?

The instructions say to rinse well and to heat for at least 60 seconds to get rid of the "distinct odor" which is a little disconserting, but I followed the instructions and mixed them with some fake ground meat and spaghetti sauce and voila:





Texture wise, I'd say it's a cross between regular spaghetti and spaghetti squash. Either way, it was delicious and the whole bag was only 1 point! Way easier to make than spaghetti squash. I think it's going to be my new pasta substitute.

I feel like between my doctor appointment, training and my new spaghetti, a fresh wave of motivation has come over me. This whole journey is as much about losing weight as it is getting healthy for me.

I just feel good tonight.

xoxo

Sigh

This weekend was rough.

FRIDAY
It started out good. I had Friday off because my best friend from college, Travis, was coming to visit. I woke up early, and took my dog on a long walk and climbed the Stairs of Death. I was feeling good. I had an apple before my walk, a veggie burger for lunch, and some steamed veggies later on in the day before dinner. We went to this new burger placed called Burgatory (awesome). We left early thinking we'd be elderly and eat dinner at 5:30 on a Friday, but it ended up taking us over an hour and half to get there, thanks to traffic and my GPS being 100% wrong. We also had a 75 minute wait for a table, so naturally we did some shopping. I bought a cute orange rain/spring jacket. I think it's the first orange piece of clothing I've ever owned. Allison and Travis really liked it, so I went with it. It helped that it was pouring rain all night, and the new jacket had a hood.
Dinner was awesome. I got a veggie burger (shocking), and I don't know if it was just that I was just so hungry, but it was one of the best veggie burgers I've ever had. The burgers come with homemade potato chips, and they use regular and sweet potatoes. Also, they have all of these crazy milkshakes, both alcoholic and non. Travis and I both got a non-alcoholic caramel pretzel milkshake. Holy crap, was it good. I only had about half of the milkshake, and half of my burger and took the rest home. I was still uncomfortably full, which would turn into the theme of the weekend.
We went to 80s night at the bar we always go to, and it was fun. Not too crowded since the local colleges are all on spring break (wooo!), so that's always a plus.
The next part is what ruined me for the weekend. We all came back to my house, and sat around the dining room table talking and playing board games. The next thing I know, it's 5 in the morning and my mom is calling me because Jon butt dialed her. 5 IN THE MORNING!!! As soon as I realized what time it was, I went to bed. And didn't wake up until noon, which brings me to...

SATURDAY
Sloth

SUNDAY
Sloth

MONDAY
3lb gain

Ugh.

I did eat too much this weekend. I didn't binge, but it's safe to say I wasn't logging my points at all. 

Depending on what minute and what hour it is, I'm either feeling super motivated or super discouraged.

It makes me so mad that it took me a month to lose 7 pounds, and in 3 short days I could gain 3 of those back. I'm hoping that they'll come back off fairly quickly. I'll keep everyone posted.

xoxo

It Has Been 10 Days Since My Last Binge

Did anyone watch this week's Heavy? I DVR'd it on Monday and watched it last night. Food addiction is a crazy thing. I felt like with the woman, I could have been watching an episode of Intervention. There was a lot I could relate to, especially with the closet eating (although, I think she would literally eat in the closet).

I do feel like I'm making strides with my eating. I'm home a lot by myself, which used to be my favorite time to pig out. I haven't binged since February 19th. I also haven't skipped a workout since that weekend.

Yesterday was a day full of temptations. Our house was seriously lacking in the grocery department, so I kind of threw my lunch together with what we had, and I wasn't looking forward to eating it. I hate not being excited about my lunch. I was tempted to order something small with the rest of the office, but I decided against it. And you know what? My lunch wasn't that bad at all. I didn't have enough food for the afternoon, and I forgot my post-gym banana, but I still turned down my boss' offer to buy us all frozen yogurt from the place up the street. I know I could have had some yogurt, and still maintained my points, but it is a very slippery slope for me. I was afraid I'd eat the yogurt and not push myself at the gym like I would have normally, or go home after training instead of doing my cardio.

As it turns out, I had my days mixed up and I train today and Thursday. Even though I was hungry, I forced myself to do my 60 minutes of cardio. Then, the hunger voice started.

"What am I going to make when I get home? I have no groceries."

"I could go the other way home and stop at Whole Foods and get something from their hot foods buffet."

"I do have a ton of points left for dinner. I wonder how many points macaroni & cheese is?"

(I hope this doesn't make me sound schizophrenic, but it literally is a battle with myself.)

I ended up just going straight home, and stayed well within my points. I made some pasta with that Ronzoni Smart Taste rotini. I added some spinach and marinara sauce. Along with some fat free cheddar. For my garlic toast (which I always need to have with pasta), I toasted one of those garlic herb wraps I mentioned before, and spread a Laughing Cow cheese wedge on it.

It's funny (and by funny, I mean gross and no wonder I weigh this much) how many servings of pasta I used to make for myself. I would have a full giant bowl and add tons of cheese.

This is an actual serving:

Was it a ton of pasta? No. Was I satisfied versus stuffed to the point of feeling uncomfortable? Yes. I'm pretty into that feeling!

For dessert I had some fat free cool whip and frozen fruit. There was no picking at things while I was waiting for my food to cook (an old, very bad habit of mine), and I drank a bunch of water last night too.

SUCCESS.

xoxo

My First Whole Month of Operation Stop Being a Fatass (sorry Mom)

It's been a whole month already. I kind of really hoped to have lost more than 8 pounds my first month, but I know that's still good. It's been tough, but worth it.

I've mentioned before that I can tell my body is getting stronger, and it's something I've never really experienced before. It's such a weird feeling. I've never been thin, and I don't think one can really "get back in shape" when never being in shape to begin with.

I've been able to up my cardio more than I ever thought possible. I'm looking forward to the weather changing, and being able to do more outside stuff.

Tonight I meet with Trainer Andy, and I'm sure it will be a legs day which means I will hate my life from about 5:30 today until next Monday when I stop being sore and get to start it all over.

xoxo